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you sit there and weep. you wonder why you, right?
why are you the one who has all of the crazy thoughts? why are you the one who has crazy emotions? why are you the one who wants to have crazy fits of rage? is there something wrong with you? were you born wrong… are you living wrong…

you sit there and weep. all of these questions, thoughts, images. you try to remember a time when you owned it all. when you were happy and care free as fuck. do you remember?
that time when smiling wasn’t so hard, wasn’t so difficult? 
when you could laugh and have it all come to you easy?

that’s the time you wish you could own, you wish you could crawl into. 

and while we talk there is so much tension. words left unsaid, feelings left bottled up, memories left incomplete. all the could-be’s and what-if’s are left to hang in suspense, so thick in the air that you could almost taste all the meals we’ve eaten together and you can almost feel all the warm kisses, long embraces. and you can almost hear all the laughter of the jokes you made as best friends. almost, but not quite. there are all of these thoughts, all of these questions, topped off with excitement and nostalgia. but that doesn’t even matter. almost, nothing matters. because all i really wanna do is fuck his brains out.